#1 Don't take this too seriously
#2 But, seriously, I am a big, fat failure.
Thankfully the Lord planned ahead.
The 2012 Olympic Games reminded me of my failure as an athlete. I always wanted to be in the Olympics but laziness and a lack of determination took over. Of course, a lot of kids dream of being an Olympian and never make it so I don't really feel too bad. Plus, there's always Rio 2016! :)
I'm fairly smart...at least I always made good grades, but my contribution to our yearly household income probably averages in the negatives. I'm a failed business woman. I'm failing as we speak, but I'm okay with it. My real full-time job just doesn't pay very well.
Speaking of that...parenting, I mean...according to Ted Tripp I'm pretty much a failure there too. Also, okay. My kids are still young, and I AM trying.
I've been a bad friend...selfish and lazy. For that I am always sorry.
It can be very depressing being such a failure as I. Here's my comfort:
28 And we know that [a]God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
2 Corinthians 12:9
9 And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.
Lord willing, He can still use me...WILL still use me. At this time my mission field is my family, and though the pay is bad, and I continue to fail everyday, God's grace is sufficient for me. For that I praise Him. Until the door opens for something else, something different, I will "be diligent to present [myself] approved" because I just can't ignore His Spirit's leading me to do so. I hope that this is true for you too.